I'm super tired. Alot has happened and I haven't been on. I don't remember my last post and this on will probably be kinda short. Idk how much longer I can keep going with anything. I rarely sleep anymore.
But i got new drugs that i start tomorrow so maybe i can sleep.
oh and I broke up with my boyfriend on monday.
fuck my life. i feel like a horrible person. and I'm so upset about it ,but noooo i can't let anyone on because that would be sooo awful for me to do. UGH
I want to cut really bad, FUCK
i wish i could sleep. i really truly do.
DON'T CUT! I want to cut really badly too, but it's not worth it. Once you get further and further away from the last time you cut, it gets harder to convince yourself that you really want to. At least for me. I have 70-something days now, and I really don't want to screw that up. YOU CAN DO THIS!
ReplyDeleteI hope you get some sleep soon! I worry about you. Stay safe, ok? <3
I truly hope you can weather through the challenges in your life. And remember that you are also providing solace, engcouragement, and strength to other people, like myself, who are fiercely battling the elements...
ReplyDeletePerhaps the greatest contribution you have given me is a new vigor and vitality to continue my struggle...
That is why I want you succeed...
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